The Two Of Us

“The world will never starve for want of wonders; but only for want of wonder.” – G.K. Chesterton

When one looks in a mirror he sees an ever changing exterior. What I saw as a child I see not as an adult. Have you ever heard one, who you haven’t seen in a while, tell you that you haven’t changed; that your still the same? By what you see in the mirror you know that not to be true. But maybe it is. Is what they see the me or the I?

The I is our being. Our awareness of everything in and beyond our environment. If we are aware, then we are. All that effects our senses and our souls. We don’t remember a lot from our toddler years unless we experienced something traumatic. Though I contracted Polio at age 4, I do remember running. Because once as a child, before Polio, I was running with a flag in my mouth imitating one of those hero dogs on the TV and fell. My mom rushed to me and dislodged the flag from my throat. No matter what your age you don’t forget an incident like that. Yet, I don’t remember much about Polio other than that I didn’t always have it. But we do remember a lot from early school years and all in between up until the present. It is a curious thing, that in living our whole life we only see ourselves in the flesh in two dimensions. By way of a mirror or photo. Technology has given us Holography, but it is still but an image of us. Others see us in three dimensions as we likewise see them. Without the aid of mirror and photo we don’t see ourselves from the rear, as well. Yet, if we had none of these aids we would know that we are, that we exist, by our interaction with others and the effects on us from our environment.

The me that we see ages and feels growing pains and aches not known in our youth. Developing health issues attributed to age advance. And our attitude, once carefree and uninhibited, now is distracted in taking notice of once ignored twinges. For the heat on such has been dialed up. The once steady stride now is a slower gate with more ebbs than flows. It takes discipline to not let such changes, deteriorating events, get us down to depression. For these things cause one to look more within than without. Me ages; I does not. I is that which is unique and non-depreciating. Atoms don’t make me aware of me. But, rather, that thing emanating from grace which places man on the highest pedestal of living hierarchy.

Yet, though the vehicle which is Me wanes with the passage of time, the timeless I is like old man river, it just keeps moving along. So when one tells you that you haven’t changed, though your once flowing hair flows no longer in harmony in a stiff wind, he says so not because he is focused on the outer trappings, but on the one eternal, I, which is never changing nor ending.

Newton’s Law of Conservation Of Energy states that energy — the ability to do work — can’t be created or destroyed. Energy can, however, change forms. Sounds like God doesn’t it? Who is, Who was, Who will always be; The Incarnate. That is why when Moses asked God: “Who should I say sent me?” God simply replied: “Tell them “I AM” sent you.”

“I AM”. God is like a vast endless ocean. We are but drops of water in that vastness. Sounds insignificant doesn’t it? But, it is quite the opposite. For if one drop is extracted from it, the ocean is then all the less for it. It, if taken literally, and all that forms it, is no longer an ocean by the loss of any part; even a drop. And if not for the ocean there would be no droplets nor occasion for them. We each are in the I of the I AM. In God’s infinite presence we find ourselves. As a creature of God our I is significant to His I AM. That is the essence of our being. That is why one can tell us that you never change. For though the body fails, due to “The Fall” from grace, so contrarily, the I will not. If I AM is eternal it is affirmed that all of I AM is eternal, including our I. Both body and soul of man were intended by God to be with Him in paradise forever, because HE IS forever. And those things which flow from God are forever things. Of which we are one. We are because He is. My connection to I Am says that I am.

I assures us of eternity. Our choices in life which determine if we are greeted with a “You never changed” from God, Who is the I that we are, will likewise determine if the eternity of our I is going to be found beyond the narrow gate or at the end of the road to perdition.

My discourse here is based upon observation, experience, gathered knowledge, examination of thought and “wonder”. I will not offer it authoritatively. Because, in some matters there is only so much we may be meant to know, lest we lose the most significant aspect of our relationship with God; FAITH.

What one can conceive, one can achieve. Though we may be limited in some conceptions, there is, even though bounded, sufficient truth to encourage hope over despair.